So i have so much to say, but i doubt it will all come out right now.  I got all these random thoughts running through my mind, but its hard to catch them and make them sit still so i can focus on them....seriously though.

Anyway one random thought it is relationshiops. Everytime i talk to my little brother he says the same thing "Why you aint got no girlfriend?" 1) i know what he tryin to imply and every time he says it his thats one more time imma beat him. 2) I just ask him the same question back, then simply tell him i just dont.  Other than when he asks me, i only think about relationships when i see my close friends and how happy they are, and also how stupid they are too. Like i'm talkin ppl who continuously walk into the same wall over and over are smater than them......Anyway. I just realized......I dont want to be in a relationship.  I truly from the bottom of my heart do NOT want to be in a relationship.  But if it happens it happens, and i'm pretty sure it won't unless I do something.

I'm just tired of girls playin games. I'm trynna get on my grown man, so let me do me and if you can't help me, then you gon hold me back, and thats not whats up.  I think i would be one of the worst and best boyfriends ever.  Like i think yea i can be romantic and i'll do things just because, but in the meantime when i'm not doin all that stuff i'mma just be me, so dont expect that extra sweet always charmin attitude or watnot.  I'm lazy sorry, but love it or hate it.  I'm not gon lie I think relationships are too much work, and its not work its stress when things are goin the way they should.  But in the end i just dont have the desire to be in a relationship, but i do want to be loved. I guess there is a difference.
I want to fall asleep with someone in my arms.....but i dont want to be in a relationship.....yea i'm weird, but you love me.

Tags: life, love, relationships
Current Location: My room
Current Mood: content

So i'm pretty much sitting in my psych class now realizing how much of a failure I am.  This is the first year in my entire life where I had to drop a class. I'm pretty sure no one in my family will say anything like, "Oh you could have done better," or anything along those lines, but I know me. I know there must have been something wrong.  Maybe I didnt do my best. Maybe I wasn't focused enough. Whatever the reason, I refuse to fail, or drop another class.

Anyway moving on........So I had a paper due and It was a rough draft, and it had to be 3pages long, but i only did one page, so I feel bad about that. And I have a group project due today, so that might suck just a little bit, its due by 9pm tonight, but it has to be turned in as a group, so I have to get that done ASAP.